so, the blog has indeed rot-.-
din blog for a long long time..
things hasn't been right for mi..
had juz recover not long from a stupid fever which last for a week..
so my one week is gone so are you..
juz because i dun have the time den i lost out in alot of things..
i dun reali know wad to do now..
i dun have a direction..
you aren't dere to guide me anymore..
i'm simply clueless..
i'm walking alone in the dark now without your companion..
i have lost everything now..
you know it better den anyone..
i dun think you can feel the hurt in my heart..
and i dun think you felt as hurt as i do..
nothing hurts more den you walked out on me..
i'd always thought that you will have a second or third thought to think about my feelings..
i'd thought you will give mi another chance..
but is seems that everything was wrong..
you reali left..
left mi crying dere alone while you continue your life happily..
so if thats reali wad you wan..
i will have no comments..
thats your rights and i cant expect much..
but you give mi sso much hope in the beginning..
wad is this all about..
the promise might be broken..
but the feeling is always dere..
it's not supposed to be lyk this..
you knew it better den anyone..
it might take mi not long to fall in love with you..
but i know its lyk forever to forget you..
i knew this is something not acceptable..
but i wan it..
because i'm serious..
i'm serious and true about you..
how can you not feel that i'm zhen xin de..
every word i said to you come out from the deepest of my heart..
i knew i have hurt you but is because that i have love you too much..
i also dun wish to be in a sian sian de mood and let you be the same as mi..
it hurts more to see you sad..
and how can you say that i dun need you anymore..
that line reali hurts alot tho..
how can you juz assume..
by saying that line you are juz crushing up my heart..
i'd need you..
i need you more den anyone do..
but you dun choose to believe this..
you think i can do things on my own without you..
but you are wrong..
i cant get things done without you..
you are the motivation for mi to everything..
but now i have lost my motivation..
i will be walking the path alone..
you wont longer be dere..
not even your shadow..
i reali reali dunno wad to do..
i'm tired of hurting myself..
its reali painful..
but nothing can compared to the wound in my heart..
i dunno wad to say for now..
i still love you..