就算世界毁灭了，我也不会放开你的手♥

20070613

ytd was out since afternoon..
went to cwp first den waited for dem to come..
after tat met uo with dem at pasta..
den whole bunch of us walked to 515..
saw jing they all dere..
after tat chatted wid mich..
den e rest of dem came..
ps i din talk to u la..
went ktv at ard 6 45..
lols..
so many pple but onli lyk jlep my sis n ashley singing lo..
e room was damn cold can..
i was shivering lyk siao..
i had 3 glass of beer..
it was so bitter la..
n i did something bad..
hahahas..
but i dun think all this matters to u anymore rite..
k till 1 den went jlep hse downstairs..
got tx fabian jlep ashley yuanhe jx melvin..
do stupid things dere la..
ard 3 went home..
jx n ashley came stay over den we play mahjong..
after tat tx fabian n yuanhe also came..
my room gt 7 pple cans..
so crowded..
zzzzzzzzzzzz..
went to living rm n was talking to xh..
chatted till 5+ den went to slp..

woke up at ard 4 todae..
damn tired..
slack at hm till 6+ den went out meet tania they all..
had dinner at food court n slack ard till 9 n bused jing hm..
den went to meet someone..
reached home at 10+..

haiz..
i m a failure, a loser..
i fail in getting wadever i wan..
this is not e first time but many many times..
it seems that everytime it was juz too late..
if things meant to be right, i might be happier now..
u dunno that things tat u do is torturing mi lyk hell..
maybe to u is nothing but u dunno it reali hurts so much..
i think u never think y i did all those things sometimes..
it is juz not tat simple as u think..
i started wad i did last year again..
i dunno wad will i end up this time round..
i dun hav tat intention nor motivation to stop..
even___ wont be able to stop mi..
i wont listen to ___ anymore..
cos now i think things aren't e same again..
no matter wad i sae ___ also wun listen liao..
wads on ___ mind was onli _____..
sian..
i lose out again..
hahahas..
lose dao xi guan liao la..
shuijiaowoxihuanshangwobugaixihuanderen..
i m e roots of all my pain..
in e first place if i dun hearts u i wont hav to go thru all torture..
hahahas..
i should laugh at my own foolishness or wad..
i m a dumb fool..
i hate being myself now..
its so not lyk mi..
i hav been trying to do all sorts of stupid things to suits u..
but i get back nothing in end..
so tat wad i should get rite..
maybe one fine day u will realise i reali hearts u tat much..
but i dunno wad i had chnage to by den..
i juz wan to let u know, onli for u i m willing to be a clown,
i m willing to give up everything,
juz for u..
JADEseow is a sore loser.. dumbass, i m reali exhausted =x

就算世界毁灭了
我也不会放开你的手

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